thee great me

2007-03-05T05:11:00.000-08:00

i am absolutely dying for thursday to come..
DANCE PARTNER!
let's party till we die.
LOVE YOU NATALIE LIM!

NICK
you'll be surrounded with hot babes.
no worries.

admission results tomorrow :(

love love love <3

went to the netball match today.
to solely support my bunny :D
you have improved so much.
i'm so proud of you.
don't worry about the results, you can trash them at the nationals.
love you bunny soh.

i'm out.

her story kicks ass

2007-02-03T21:14:00.000-08:00

okay. i obviously know that i haven't blogged in a long time.
shut up

year 2007 was a new beginning for me.
i found new friends, experienced life the hard way.
(i feel like some old person.)
in a short span of 2 months, i encountered so mant things.

people really change.

the low down on the people i want to kill.

-a certain someone who is gonna get a new hair cut from me if she irks me again
-another someone whom i'm going to kick in the tits if she tries anything funny. bloody bitch.
-a whore who has proclaimed that she wants to slap me. CAT FIGHT. so fun, let's see who wins.

names have beeen edited to protect their love ones and most importantly, so i won't spoil the fun.

2006-07-02T23:04:00.000-07:00

crap.
i haven't blogged in 3487134 years.
let's see what's going on.
school is hectic,
prelims are coming and my class is still acting as if we're on cloud9

Random thought:i can't believe i only when clubbing twice.FOR THE WHOLE HOLIDAYS.

WORLD CUP
everyone,
if you haven't been watching the world cup,
seriously,WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?!

Germany.Brazil.Argentina.Portugal.

The above teams,are the ones i support *swoons
Germany has the super sexy Ballack.
Brazil has the oh-so-cute Kaka
Portugal has the ever-so-hot Cristiano Ronaldo
Argentina..Well, they play beautiful football:)

Too bad Brazil and Argentina got out,
I don't know how that happened.

Anyways, i'm off to meet my ninnies.
later:)

2006-04-29T20:55:00.000-07:00

Man.
The exams are next week.
Why God? why?
After the exams, iwill only go for three parties cause i must be serious and disciplined.
yeah right.
boring day
i'm gonna go get more spongebob stickers
WHOOPEE.

I BETTER STUDY.

2006-04-13T06:44:00.000-07:00

boring, boring week.
it passed so very fast.
i hardly remember anything.
i wish i could see that special someone soon.
it's been nine lonesome days

i wish
wish for you on a falling star
wondering where you are.
do i ever cross your mind in the warm sunshine?

What i've been thinking lately
To you:
If you ever read this.
i'm sorry i screwed up your life
do you think i really wanted to?
Do you really think that after all the fun times we had i would really have done what i did on purpose?
I made two stupid mistakes and i freaking regret them.
Aren't you tired of ignoring each other?
I am.
It's so draining.
I helped someone who betrayed me in return.
Someone i cared about a lot. Note the past tense.
Maybe i do now.
I didn't have any idea how much your friendship meant to me until i reached this part of the road.
What i did was on the spur of the moment.
I hate that i've hurt you by what i did.
Trust is really fragile, that i know.
I've learnt from this horrible lesson.
I wish you would forgive me.
I wish we were happy again.
I wish i didn't hate someone who turned out to be a great person.
I wish i knew that what i was going to do was going to hurt a lot of people, so that i wouldn't do it.
I wish i could turn back time.
If only i could do it, i'll give anything in the world.
I swear i mean all of this.
If only..
I'm truly sorry.
really

Oh, and lastly,
happy sixteen birthday.

2006-04-08T22:44:00.000-07:00

Mum.
I'm so sorry cause i typed a really long reply to your e-mails and it got deleted. Grrr.
I MISS YOU ALL VERY BADLY
i promise i'll pen a reply ASAP.

SPORTS DAY.
yellow house won hands down for cheerleading.
aspiring to be the best nothing but success.

BAND CONCERT
it was such a last minute thing.
i went for it and i didn't regret one bit.
NAT and JAMIE were sooo funny.
After the concert, went for supper with nat, jamie, antonia, trina, marissa and regina.
the stupid ice-cream man called us a lesbian achool.
I went, "You gay Ice-cream man!"
and we all ran.
cheap thrills//
HAD A BONDING SESSION WITH NAT, JAMIE AND MARS.
oohlala
it really was a bitching session .
i was really irritated by three people.
watch out tomorrow, you cheeky ninnys.

I'M OUT
I LOVE YOU MUM!

2006-02-17T17:24:00.000-08:00

my god.
in the com. lab with mel.
so boring.
who cares about my learning styles.
i refuse to do this.
but i'm here..
AC carnival later.

2006-02-16T01:02:00.000-08:00

yes.
i know i haven't blogged in centuries.
but i think i'll just blog occasionally.
anyway.
january was really boring.
it passed by so freaking fast.
nothing much happened.
the homeroom system is really frustrating,
and with all the new teachers and stuff.
BLEARGH.

february.

8th february
MEL AND MY BIRTHDAY!
happy birthday to us (:

10th and 11th february
SELF-AWARENESS CAMP!
OMFG
it was so cool.
i swear my impression of everyone changed for the better.
yipee.
the camp was really to good to be true.
i wasn't looking forward to it at all, but when i went for it...
let's just say that i'm glad that i did (:
the cofession part was the best.
it totally did it for me.
miss teo is such a nice person and mr tang cares about fourten so much.
SELF-AWARENESS ROCKS!
i learnt that being thankful is important.

14th february.
St. Valentine's Day.
i fell sick on this day.
how screwed up is that?
but i managed to give out my gifts (:

18th february.
AC's carnival.
doesn't sound fun.
but i shall go for it cause it's a bestie's outing.

later world.

2005-12-21T23:52:00.000-08:00

chinablack
it seriously kicked ass.
i didn't expect it to be so good.
met jocelyn then went to take prints and we found out that the KENJI person was there.
OMFG.
he's damn good looking please.
then met cheryl and lynn(she's so sweet.) and their friends.
saw some people.
i swear i almost died.
headed to pacific plaza (i finally got it right..pan pacific..)
WE ALMOST GOT STUCK IN THE BLOODY LIFT.
and we were all freaking out.
then it began to move.
the place was already rocking.
the songs were quite disappointing though.
couldn't find certain people who were suppose to be there.
idiots.
cheat my feelings.
saw CLARISSA.
she's so pretty(:
oh and jamie looked different.
in a good way.
we were dancing like crazy and i woke up the next day and my feet HURT.
like for five hours.
DAMN.
but it was good though.
it would have been better if i could have stayed over.

OH MAN.
SCHOOL STARTS IN TWO WEEKS
but i don't reaLly know exactly when.
heh.
better ask sam.

I'M OUT.

2005-11-27T00:56:00.000-08:00

THE 5TH AND 19TH
WOOHOO.
HERE I COME
CALLI THE DISCO DIVA
teehee.
can't wait to hit the dancefloor.

murder on the dancefloor

2005-11-27T00:37:00.000-08:00

woah
i haven't blogged in weeks.
ANYWAY.
was actually looking forward to the netball camp but i didn't go for it.
i don't understand myself.
if i really wanted to do something, no matter what, i'll get it done.
guess i had a change of heart.

the 24th ROCKED.
i am so glad i went for it.
quite a number of IJ girls went for it.
things only started to heat up around one.
thanks to a special someone and my sudden surge of recklessness.
can't wait for the next two events.
better go for mass later.
I'M OUT

2005-11-08T11:54:00.000-08:00

wooo.
i'm woozy.
wanna sleep but can't.
seriously screwed up mah body clock.
learnt about something really serious.
i mean yesterday.
i wish i didn't know.
it is depressing and sad.
but i am a flower child.
a hopping pony(:
i will distant myself in a white bubble.
miss mah special one..

i found mah other side(:

i'm OUT.

2005-11-02T22:20:00.000-08:00

thinking..
thinking and eating cornflakes..
what the hell is going on?

2005-11-02T20:14:00.000-08:00

I'M FREE!
went out with my buddies yesterday!
so fun please.
watched a movie.
i shan't say the name of it.
cause it was quite crap and we were playing a fool and throwing popcorn around in the cinema.

but yesterday really helped me a lot.
(look miss chow, i separated my a lot)
at a time like this i can still happily joke.
which tells us something.
finally i've let it all out.
i'll never do anything to tear my friendship with the ones i care about into pieces again.
it's not worth anything.
isn't this ironic?
but i'll keep our secrets.
i've learnt my lesson.
to mitch: what you said actually made sense. everyone clap please. but i can't be expected to let it go so easily. i went through way to much and i lost a lot. maybe i just need more time to cool off.
i had a dream last night.
the outcome of what might happened if i choose to fix things.
with a hell load of help
but it's never gonna happen.
it's too perfect.
way too perfect.
well, perfect enough for me.
with everything back to the way it was.

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

2005-10-28T05:52:00.000-07:00

fourten sounds weird
but i'm cool with it
i made it
damn happy please

damn.
gotta go back to school to collect mah report book.
cause there was an error with our physics marks.
there's gonna be both accounts and maths classes during the holidays.
INTENSIVE PLEASE.
but, i'm cool..
i really need them

oh oh!
and there's gonna be a netball camp.
three days two nights.
from the 21st to the 23rd nov
feel like packing now.
SOUNDS FUN!
can't wait!

broke mah heart to see mah special one cry today.
hope she's better:)

2005-10-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

friendship just had a new meaning to it(:
to my best friend.
i just want you to know how much i appreciate you.
it's been three years in IJ
and although we're ALWAYS in different classes.
i always knew i could count on you(:
and as we went through these three years, meeting new people.
acquiring new friends.
you never left me.
you were always there when i was down.
you plucked me out from the dark.
you gave me courage to move on.
you always lent me a listening ear.
you gave me the greatest advice.
you always tolerated me.
you always knew the true me no matter how different i seemed.
and it was because of all this that we never quarrelled(okay, maybe once or twice, but STILL.)
eh?
actually i don't even remember us quarrelling in secondary school.
I thank God for giving me someone i could always rely on.

i LOVE YOU :D

we'll always be best friends forever.

2005-10-26T05:23:00.000-07:00

sitting in the room
with a fucked up kid next to me.
young with an attitude.

i wanna sleep till tmr.
i don't want the world to see me
cause i don't think that they'll understand.

i was in a great mood today
it was difficult to spoil, thanks to the presence of mah special one(:

be my escape

2005-10-24T02:23:00.000-07:00

what a completely boring day.
but we got the last of our papers.
and i think i made it to sec four
thank you God.
hopefully i did.
the verdict is out this friday
pray for me.
I WANNA GET TO SEC FOUR!
AND GRADUATE WITH FOUR TEN!!
IF I DON'T BLOG AFTER FRIDAY
I THINK MIGHT HAVE TAKEN A CHOPPER TO STAB MYSELF.

2005-10-16T21:16:00.000-07:00

sigh.
looking back at the past month
its been so filled with outings.
i don't even remember my room.
days at the library mugging for exams. and other things.
late night on the phone.
avoiding uncomfortable situations.

i swear everything changed on Friday the 14th.
i went for the retreat held in school.
i have to add that i was awfully dreading to attend this miserable reteat as Friday was suppose to be a holiday for us.
at the beginning of the retreat, the priest drilled this statement into our heads.
"Don't leave this room with any regrets."
it was then that so many people flooded through my mind.
all those people that i have been at loggerheads with.
and those of which i haven't spoken to in a long time.
but that thought soon dropped out of my head cause i knew that what i was thinking was not going to be possible.
coming to the end of the mission,
we had to do this confession thingy and almost everyone in the room burst out crying.
it was such a sad scene.
i hugged (this is a list.)

MY BESTIE:D
TOAD: i know you were feeling like crap over what happened between you and your freinds but i just want you to know that even though we are not as close anymore, i'll always be here for you. oh and my best friend too!
JAMIE. my one and only (yeah right.)
YVELYN. I LOVE YOU!
DEBORAH. she's not as weak as she looks, damn. she's such a nice hugger:)
MARY. I love her plentys.
MAY. she said such sweet things to me. i think i love her.
SANDRA.DAN.JADE.LYDIA.SAM.VANESSA.NATS.JOYCE.KAREN.people whom i never thought i'll hug with so much warmth flooding through me.
i even hugged chelsia: she apologised to me for God knows what.haha.

its amazing how a hug can mean so much.
here's the best part.
blah blah and blah blah came up to me to apologise!
when i hear their voice, i swear i almost fainted.
i realised how much i missed them after they hugged me .
no words can describe the happiness that overwhelmed me when they hugged me.
i can't believe it.
i miss them so, so much
FORGET ALL THE SHIT THAT HAPPENED MAN.
another great thing happened.
i was sobbing like hell after hugging blah blah and blah blah caused i miss them so much when stace suddenly grabbed me from the side and hugged me and apologised.
i almost died from sdock.
but i was so happy and i really appreciated it.
the she started crying and started talking about someone.
i felt so bad for her.
if only i could do something to make her feel better.
sigh.
all in all.
i'm glad i went for the retreat.
it changed my life for the better.
although my heart is now broken.

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change
Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye
Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me

2005-10-03T23:59:00.000-07:00

i am so glad i'm home(:
i need to sleep.
i am so deprived of it.

hrmm. shall mug like hell for geoggers later today.
i'm not going to sleep till i get it done.

okayyy.
i feel terrible for what i've been doing, but i can't.
sorry, but i need to block her out.
i may seem cold and everything.
but i have my reasons.
she's a HUGE distraction *emphasis on the huge.
i'll make up for it when the exams are over.
hopefully she doesn't think that i've given up.

~~it is so difficult to stop thinking of someone you love~~
~~it hurts like crap everytime i try to tear my eyes away from her~~
~~i miss her so much~~
~~URGH. this sucks.really badly~~

three down. seven more to go.
what the freaking hell.
well. on the bright side.
i only have to go to school for FIVE more days.
wahaha.
hrmm.but i'm going to be deprived.
NOOOO!
stop it brain!

laters(:

2005-09-30T22:25:00.000-07:00

woohoo.i'm like finally online.
these past two weeks have been so weird.
i have been so brave lately. *winks

stupid michelle!
die now.
why must you malu me?
why?
you will get your retribution.
hot your head ah!

message for betina soh.
stop being childish
you strawberry head.
AND
STOP BULLYING HER!
you and cherlynn are such idiots.
ask cherlynn to read this too. (hellos cherlynn!)
my heart will be very pain if you two comtinue doing this.
so yes, children.
let's be civilised.
and don't make calli's heart so pain.

hrmm.i'm bored.
shall call someone.
laters

2005-09-09T00:39:00.000-07:00

YEAH!
I am so happy for mah bunny!
You're DAMN LUCKY PLEASE.
Can't wait to go for church tomorrow(:

Gonna spend mah whole day with mah bun.
and later, somebody's particular someone.
HAHA!
Show tomorrow.

2005-08-24T05:07:00.000-07:00

URGH!
you screwed up slut.
DIE NOW.
if i could kill one person, i SWEAR i'll kill YOU.

2005-08-24T04:35:00.000-07:00

what a sad sad life.
why must i fall sick now?
why god?
i feel a fever coming.
POOR ME.

can't wait for friday!
having lunch with my beloved bestie.
i miss you so much that i may just cry.
(i'm just saying that to say how much i miss you)

after talking to bunny last night.
it finally hit me.
when you think what you're going to do is the right thing.
don't do it.
cause it may end up in alot of people getting hurt.
i miss you bun.

URGH.
i swear i'm going to go to hell for this.
why did it have to turn out so badly?
i really didn't mean for it.

to marissa:
i am not dao in school.
i am just thinking.

to sam, my shifu:
i'm sorry i couldn't be there for you.
hope you're alright :)

to bunny:
we'll do this together.
ask her to go fuck herself.

to my bestie, jing:
i love you tonns.

2005-08-22T02:40:00.000-07:00

haven't blogged for ages.i swear.

let me summarise what i've been doing lately
#I think i have finally explored all the shopping centres in Singapore.
when i think about it, its actually quite sad.
#I cut my hair.twice
#I'm trying to grow fairer.
why god? why must i be so dark?
#Talking on the phone.ALOT
#Studying. i am NOT going to retain.
#I've watched 'The Maid' and don't watch it. It is so not scary that i don't know why it is a bloody horror movie.
#Recruiting spies.I shan't elaborate.
# I am now a movie junkie.
#Thinking.

LESSONS I HAVE LEARNT
#I can only trust bunny and jing.they are my bestest pallies:)
#You can't rely on anyone.
#Fate isn't real.
It is just something that insecure people choose to believe in so as to reassure themselves.
Think about it.
Take a second.
#I miss making my bird mating sounds. It's so cool
#I've picked up a new habit.

2005-07-02T13:52:00.000-07:00

woke up today all smiley :)
my sleep was interrupted thanks to nat for smsing me at 7.55am.
yawns

was out with nat,izza,bunny and thongs in the afternoon.
we had fun.
i was taking pictures of bunny on my phone and she didn't even know.
and i betrayed her and her extremely short white shorts.
sorry.couldn't resist.

i have only three words to say to all that had happen last night
OH MY GOD

i was helping izza,nat,dawn,pet and celeste paint their nails black at Long Johns.
thank you very much, i know i'm a damn good nail painter.
that explains my perfect nails.
the best part was the pushing back of cuticles, nat and pet were so scared cause according to them, it was pain? haha

on our way home,i was buying the standard ticket when idiotic me couldn't find the $2 that Hui Yun lent me!
and dawn,izza,hui yun and pet were on the OTHER SIDE ALREADY!
but i got rescued and it was such a close shave i swear.

the other thing that sucked was that i banged FULL FORCE into those poles painted in black and white stripes to stop cars from going pass them.
it actually wasn't that bad except that half of Orchard Road saw how glam i was.
stupid nat and izza, make me laugh so much that i wasn't really seeing where i was going.

reached home at 10.30 pm i think?
hope everyone is okay.
that is, didn't get scolding for going home late or anything.

talked to bunny and nat and then conferenced with the both of them.
where are you izza?

long weekend ahead.
i'm in a dilemma.
should i sleep now or call bunny or nat or izza?
sleep i think.
yawns.

2005-07-01T23:45:00.000-07:00

vee just said to me
"never give up on the thinks that make you smile"
and i was at a complete loss for words.
sigh
when will this end?

2005-06-30T00:01:00.000-07:00

i'm so not in the mood for anything

don't even want to go for the fucking youth day shit tomorrow.
who the fuck wants to dance in a place covered with decorations bought from some 3 for $1 shop.
no offence to those whose parents are decorating it.
but the decorations put up so far, seriously SUCKS.
i wonder if i could just paint my nails and go to school and say that i got it done in school.
that's an idea

recieved some shit depressing news today.
which is the main course of my fucked up mood.
what the hell is she getting at?
can't she just get to the point?
one by one,all these setbacks fall on me.
i seriously have no energy to take all this fucking shit.
i have no one to lean on.
i'm so tired.
so, so tired
if only everything could be normal.

she said i changed dramatically after i got into the team.
and she's worried about my overall developement.
LOOK WHO'S TALKING.

i'm lucky to have my two bunnies.
I LOVE YOU ALL APLENTYS.

i have decided to be a nun.
get away from all the crap.

it's so pathetic that she doesn't realise that everthing that she is doing is breaking up the team.
think about it
take a second.haha
i can't believe that even in my fucked up mood i am still in the mood for jokes.
stop it brain!
this is so annoying.

give me strength to hold on, please.

2005-06-28T23:35:00.000-07:00

Your melody is my remedy

Because your kisses on my lips

what a boring day//

2005-06-28T00:00:00.000-07:00

me,dawn,izza and nat have decided to give ourselves a name
haha.thinking of monchichis
how pathetic is that?
haha

bunny.
your whole family really sucks man.
bluff me again last night

haven't been blogging a week.
D E P R I V E D

its going to be five weeks
bunny
if you know what i mean
be more brave babe.

Thank you nat
for abandoning us yesterday.
so sweet of you.
you are forgiven by the way.
tralala

SCHOOL REALLY STINKS!
i'm getting bullied

2005-06-19T23:22:00.000-07:00

bunny.
maybe you just shouldn't have told me.
do me a favour
don't tell anyone else
it's nice that you want to be a nun with me.
i'm touched.
hmm.
let's think now..

i gotta take it though it's heartbreaking
it's something that i had to do
but nobody said that it would hurt so bad
so how do I live?
how do I deal without you?

[it hurts so bad]

2005-06-16T20:54:00.000-07:00

in my head there's only ~~you~~ now
this world falls on me
in this world
there's real and make-believe
this seems real to me

2005-06-16T20:39:00.000-07:00

last night, conferenced with nat and izza from 12am to 3am.
someone was so happy.
i'm really tired.
think i'll go back to sleep soon.

i wonder if i should go for jo's party tonight.
twenty wants to go.
it's from eleven till dawn.
heard it'll be fun.
i want to watch cold case and smallville though
jo,you better be honoured if i turn up as it'll mean i sacrificed my shows to go to your party.
ah well.
better catch some sleep.
what should i wear?
TWENTY!

2005-06-15T00:47:00.000-07:00

talala/
what a very boring day
miss talking to bunny
call me when you read this!
i never get bored talking to my dear bunny
Izza.
we need to put our foot down firmly and well..
be firm.
IT'S GOTTA BE SOONER OR LATER AND I RATHER IT BE SOONER!
bunny
Izza and i thought of a name for you: moonrock
so it'll be pebble, stone, ROCK and moonROCK

ANNOUNCEMENT
the biggest procrastinater of all time. eg: me
hasn't even started on her holiday homework!
im gonna be a fried duck man.
what kind of freaking holiday is this?!

i'm am so honoured to be so many things
*bunny
*duck
*strawberry princess
*pebble
*pufferfish
*broken down washing machine
*ahems bag
and i own so many things
*bestie
*starfish
*starbird
*a bunny
*a shopping partner
*a gossip partner [must give her a proper nickname]

ah wells.
till then

2005-06-09T20:37:00.000-07:00

It's not my style
to try and cheat and lie
why do you santify
something thats already died
I've got something that i realise
I aint gonna shout it
from the rooftops honey
Tell me i'm the only one
Kick em to the curb and baby dont stop running
Tell me how you gonna come get some
Did you ever ask yourself the question
Where the hell did i go wrong?
Cos you know when it's true
I'll be waiting for you
So tell me how you gonna come,come
Come get some

2005-06-09T20:28:00.000-07:00

it sucks that we're friends but we can't talk.
man that really really sucks.
what the hell please?
and why the hell must she be so fucking cold?
i don't need that shit.
whatever man.

my bad that i even tried.

2005-06-05T23:43:00.000-07:00

I CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT TO POST ABOUT VEE'S PARTY!
many apologies.

VEE'S PARTY
the entire party was so well-planned. not a single thing i could critisize.haha.sorry vee.it was really good.went with twenty (yes twenty is my cousin) and she went all balistic cause of the couples making out at every corner.i thought the whole thing was nice with all the drinks within a metre reach. really good huh? stupid summer hid in this stupid room filled with purple confetti.SHE WAS MAKING OUT WITH TIM?! we had such a hard time looking for them.i swear the vodka tasted better than those at manty's party. twenty mixed it with the vanilla ice-cream meant for the brownies and it was so good. vee was taking pictures with RANDOM guys and me and twenty were horrified. i must post the pictures for the world to see. i mean, i know vee's hot but...ahh it's your life vee.i suppose you were too drunk.thinking of going for manty's party this saturday.i wanna try bringing nat and izza along.remember what we're suppose to do nat? heheh. can't wait.

2005-06-04T20:02:00.000-07:00

IJ HEARTBEAT ROCKED!
Had so much fun.
Andrea!
You did so well. :D

How hot was she?
Tres hot.
That's how.

Didn't go for the mass at Holy Spirit.
Wasn't feeling too well.

Holidays are here.
Shall spend my days at home
Dying at one corner.

Can't wait for 8th June!
I'll be there to watch you sing Sarah, my love.
Will bring Izza along. Oh and Nat too.If she wants.

Yeah!
13th June is two eight's reunion chalet at Chevrons
!4th and 15th June is three ten's chalet also at Chevrons!
CAN'T wait!

BETINA SOH!!!
you die!
never tell me!!!

2005-05-20T00:45:00.000-07:00

~~she~~ made my life worthwhile.

2005-05-20T00:11:00.000-07:00

If love is blind, then what is love at first sight?

2005-05-17T00:41:00.000-07:00

I swear i'll just die.
Today totally rocked socks!
You know why, bunny sista. grins :D

I will never get over this.
I CANNOT wait for tomorrow.

yipee.
English and chinese scripts.
sigh

YESTERDAY
Met up with bunny and thongs
Girl talk man!
Should have met up with you all earlier.

Conferenced with Nat and Izza till 0145am.
Man. Was i tired.

2005-05-14T02:36:00.000-07:00

*sings* life is beautiful
I swear i'm gonna die.
I can't believe that just happened!
BETINA!
RACHEL!
conference soon, bunny sista and thongs
very important indeed.

2005-05-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

woah
haven't blogged in centuries.

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!
So chill. everyone.
Man, the results are like next week.Erghh
How sad is that?
Sensationally sad,that's how.
I'm surely going to fail cheena, maths and maybe accounts.
Please god,don't be too hard on me.

[Everyone, welcome to heartbreak hotel]

Someone is just so very weird.
What planet is she from and why isn't it further away?
Stop interferring in my life and back off.

Betina:Chill babe. Everything will blow over.
No harm done, so no worries,babe.
I'm so deprived of [[her]] by the way.
Reply my letter, yeah?

Later peeps.
love~

2005-05-07T05:35:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! i'm having the laughing thing now.
hahaha i can't stop hahaha
my chest hurts
i think i'm going to have a heart attack
hahahahahahhha
can't wait for monday

2005-05-07T00:46:00.000-07:00

What are you thinking about right now?
-H E R
Friendship or relationship?
- RELATIONSHIP!
Who do u love to crap with?
- CELESTE AND JIA ZHI AND BESTIE AND MY DEAR VANA! :D
Who is the one who always brightens up your day?
- HER
Who always comforts you or gives you advices?
-MY BESTIE AND IVANA AND JO-LYNN! :D
How many piercings do you have?
-EIGHT AND A HALF
Have you ever felt as if you are gonna die?
-yes. loads of times
Who is the cutest guy you've met in your life?
- SO MANY!
What is the last good deed you've done?
- I sheltered my bag from the rain?
Have you ever had butterflies in your stomach?
- YES. Every morning during assembly. ahem
Have you ever missed someone so badly??
-YES! I'M MISSING THAT SOMEONE NOW!
Can you describe a little about your crush?
-HOT.DROP DEAD GORGEOUS IN MY OPINION
Did you hug anyone before?
- DUH? ALMOST EVERYDAY.
Have you ever stripped someone naked?
- NO! BUT I WOULD LIKE TO.
Have you ever taken a picture of yourself naked?
- NO? LIKE HELLO? HAVE YOU?
Have you ever went to a pub?
- YES
What is the last song you heard?
- THE KILLERS MR BRIGHTSIDE
Have you ever wanted to commit suicide?
- YES.ALL THE TIME [I'M KIDDING]
Who do you tink is the crappiest person in your
class?
- NATALIE LONG
Who have you slept with other than your family
members?
- JO-LYNN
Who is the most unforgettable person you met in
your life?
- TWO PEOPLE ACTUALLY BUT I WON'T SAY WHO.
Have you ever confessed your feelings?
-DEFINITELY NOT!
Have you ever gotten yourself into trouble?
- TRUCKLOADS
Have you ever lied to your parents?
- DUH?
Tell us honestly - do you regret having a crush on
someone?
-YES. I REALLY REGRET IT.GAWDDD.
WHAT WAS I THINKING?!
Do you still like your crush?
- NO. I LIKE SOMEONE ELSE NOW.
Are you in love now?
- NOT IN LOVE BUT I LIKE SOMEONE. DOES THAT COUNT?

2005-05-06T21:57:00.000-07:00

today was an absolutely totally extremely boring day
who the hell invented maths anyway?
stupid maths exam.
do i like like somone who plans to calculate the area of shapes when i grow up?
is there even a person who does that?
probably.poor bloke
i'm so gonna fail maths.
prepared anyway
shall work harder for the other papers.
there's still physics biology art and accounts.
no pressure calli
THERE'S NO SCHOOL FOR THREETEN ON WEDNESDAY AND FRIDAY!
its both a good and a bad thing
its good cause [duh?!] there's no school
its bad cause i can't see my eye candy
ah well
gonna mug now
later

2005-05-04T05:04:00.000-07:00

what a seriously f u c k e d up day.
the truth is out.
my whole life came crashing down on me

I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.I miss you.

if only you didn't know.
if only..

missing someone really sucks
its like having a constant headache
this really really sucks

2005-04-29T00:54:00.000-07:00

oh godd..
someone tell me
how am i suppose to get through this long weekend?
gonna be damn deprived please?
betina..rachel
help me..

2005-04-26T23:39:00.000-07:00

yeaah.
the damned english exam is like finally over.
should do quite alright.
bored of my rocker
i missed seeing y o u
hope i get to see y o u tomorrow
bye all
i should go lie in my bed of pain and think of h e r

2005-04-26T00:10:00.000-07:00

Today was such a piss off ing day
Stupid teachers kept closing the classroom doors.
I had absolutely NO chance of seeing her!
So infuriating please!
Betina another one!
Malu me.
You wait.
How could you? sobs
Do you know how embarrassing that was? sniffs
Never mind.
I shall get even with you tomorrow.
For goodness sake.
DO NOT BETRAY ME AND TELL HER ANYTHING!
Tired now.
Later.

2005-04-15T23:51:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JAMIE! :D

YESTERDAY (150405)

Went down to support the netballers.
The senior and the junior team have made it into the finals which is gonna be held this coming Thursday.
Both divisions played damn well.
They totally trashed St Nicks and Singapore Sports School.
Something happened that made me REALLY happy!
Quite embarrassing really.
Shan't say what it is.

SATURDAY(160405)

Attention please!!
2.4km is finally over and so is the god damned PFT!

I have an announcement to make!
Our dear dear Mel is officially a bimbo!
During the PFT today, she ended at the wrong place!
How can anyone do this?
She didn't realise till yours truly told her!
HAHA!

Gonna go out with Jo-Lynn.
Probably gonna go for Danceworks finals.
How funnnn.

2005-04-10T04:29:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAMELA! :D
IF YOU WANT A PRESENT FROM ME, GO TO THE FOOT OF YOUR BED AND PRAY VERY VERY HARD.

This week has been one longs and boring week.
Like one longs and boring Social Studies Lesson.

EMBARRASSING ACT SEEN ON BUS 231

On Thursday afternoon on the 7th of March,at around 5pm
Two CHIJ Secondary (Toa Payoh) girls who appeared to be heading home on bus no. 231
were seen to be behaving most inappropriately
Both girls were dressed in their school P.E attire and looked as if they had just completed their PFT five items
Apparently one of them were tickling the other
to the extent that they ended up knocking their foreheads together
This highly embarrassing act has thrown the two girls into the limelight
as the incident occurred in a bus filled with commuters heading home.
One such person who was interviewed who declined to be named said "What atrocious behavior especially the girl who was trashing around the bus." (FYI: That girl was Mel.)
As the two girls appeared clearly shocked at the fact that this article was to be published.
They turned balistic when we asked for an interview and even threatened to take the matter to court.
The other innocent girl at the scene was Calli. Yes everyone, the great Calli.

MEL:Don't kill me tomorrow. I couldn't resist.

2005-04-06T17:18:00.000-07:00

oh dear..
the juniors didn't do well.
it's okay.
you all did your best.
chill babes.

2005-04-06T01:18:00.000-07:00

YELLOW HOUSE KICKS BUTT MAN!
Yeah!
Yellow house came in first for both Cheer and Track events!
So i guess we're the champions for this year huh?
Oh. We also came in first for the lion dance thingy yeah?
Oh goody good good.
Everyone especially Huajia's hardwork has paid off.
Congrats babe. grins

Anyway,today we had this ridiculous story telling guy from Germany.
God, he was lame.
But he made me and Mel laugh our heads off.

Man. PFT tomorrow. die already

Some quickies to my lovies.
MEL: I love you many many! Can't wait to disturb you tomorrow!

ANDREA: Band Partner! Had a great time talking to you today! We have a mission tomorrow! heheh.

MARMIE: Marmie! Even though you always pang seh me during our mission.I still love you!

NATASHA: Colouring partner! Thanks for helping me today! I LOVE YOU! :D

JOYCE: Gossip partner! haha.You made me laugh like crap today! Love youu!

2005-03-29T18:28:00.000-08:00

Was having a chat today with my dearie!

"Fall in love. It is the best thing that can ever happen."

Hearing this really had me thinking.
How can such a simple thing change people's lives?
How is it that the one thing that can make people so happy be so very hard to obtain??
Falling in love is never easy.
Especially when you fall out of love and have your pretty little heart broken by someone you ~~thought~~ you loved.
Weird huh?
Love is a two way thing.
You can't just go head over heels over someone and call that love.
or whatever.

Love is nothing but pretty lies.

And then there is this other thing called Fate.
I for one, do not believe in Fate.
Cause it is commonly known that Fate occurs naturally.
What if we can actually change them?
If Fate planned that we were suppose to go out and meet the guy of our dreams today?
Think about this..
What if we don't go out and we don't meet him today?
Hrmm..
What exactly are they playing at?
It can't mean that Fate decided to not let us meet him at the last moment right?
Or maybe
So is Fate something that we can control?
Is that what it's suppose to be?
People tell me " Your Fate is in your hands."
Someone else tells me "Let Fate decide for you."
Huh??
Can somebody explain to me?
Or shall i live with the fact that..

Everything changes Fate

Fate is just something you blame or rely on when something happens.

What a load of rubbish.

2005-03-28T02:15:00.000-08:00

man.
this is so fustrating
just did my geoggers project
the computer just froze and now everything is gone.
thank you computer.
gonna get scolding for not doing it tomorrow
hooray
hope mrs kunna doesn't get too angry.

today was quite a coolios day.
nothing much happened during lessons
except the fact that mel was acting as if she lost her marbles or something.haha
oh, and that my back was aching like crap.
THANKS HUBBY FOR MASSAGING MY BACK!! :D

was out for a while with mel,bean and sherry
had so much fun.haha
thanks guys
made my day.
grins.

I'm freaking scared
my case is gonna be reviewed this wednesday.
hope the result of it won't make me start feeling depressed all over again.
sigh

Better go start nerding. LOVE~

MEL: I love you many many.
Can't wait to disturb you tomorrow.

SHERRY:Don't give up!
You know what i mean. Remember what i said! LOVE~

2005-03-25T19:16:00.000-08:00

Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go I just broke down (down) Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice Cause the feeling that I feel within No other man would ever make me feel so right Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me I miss the way you hold me tight [Bridge] I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch I never thought that I could ever love a man so much I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything [Chorus 2x] Thats right baby I'm going crazy I need to be your lady I've been thinking lately That you and me, yes we can make it Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel From the moment that I met you its been so damn real My heart seems to skip another beat Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me And you love me I'm your lady I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do? It's true, no fronting Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you I'll just break down (down) [Bridge] I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch I never thought that I could ever love a man so much I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything [Chorus 2x] Thats right baby I'm going crazy I need to be your lady I've been thinking lately That you and me, yes we can make it Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby Ohhh, ohhh....Crazy... lady..... lately.... Ohhh ohhh..... Ohh ohhh ohhhhhh Baby...

2005-03-23T19:22:00.000-08:00

I miss my blog!
sigh.
I have been very hardworking nowadays.
And guess what?
I actually understand maths.
What a complete surprise. seriously
With mel sitting next to me banging herself half the time,
school's alright now.
Nat and I are trying very hard regarding school..
I hope everything will go back to normal soon..

Been really depressed lately.
I'm trying to stay out of trouble but it seems that trouble ALWAYS comes looking for me.
My entire CME group,which consists of Stace, Nat, Rara, Bean and Connie are in so much shit.
Seriously. It seems that the teachers don't seem to believe that Nat and I are not involved.
My other members had no intention of doing ittoo!
Why would they go looking for trouble?
sigh
Nat and I REALLY cannot get into any trouble already!!
The entire group is so dead.
BUT! I'm sure everything will be fine as long as we stick together!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!! :D
WE CAN DO IT!

2005-03-13T01:14:00.000-08:00

Calli is all set to start nerding starting from tomorrow.
i've completed all the homework that i owe mrs mah or so i think.
yeah!

I am so bored off my rocker
I was reading Harry Potter and the new book is coming out soon!
I'm such an obsessed little child

Went grocery shopping today and my monkey was deciding what vegetables to buy?
I was so embearrassed!
She was poking at all the veggie!
We decided to buy strawberries cause yours truly pointed out that they are so very pretty!
and nice to eat.

okay.off to go check out Paragon.
i'll probably get something pretty!

I feel as if my usage of vocabulary is so limited. pretty here.pretty there.haha

lovelove~

2005-03-12T03:36:00.000-08:00

uh oh
I think i love you?
i'm so confused.
i love you dear.
Or don't i?
oh no oh no

2005-03-12T02:54:00.000-08:00

oh godd..
I feel as if my life is like one big blur.
Everything is so screwed up.
studies..netball..nearly my whole life.
got my report slip
i did quite badly.
tsk tsk
there goes my acadamic life.
I have to go back to school everyday during the march holidays to study?!!
planned it with ms shanti and mr tang
I know it's for my own good.
so i shall not complain.
at least i'm still in the team.
hooray. (i mean it)
I can't believe i'm saying this,
but i'm rather thankful that im given another chance (again)
I shall be a good girl and study hard and make my daddy proud! :)

i don't want to talk about yesterday.
was bombarded with so many questions
i feel so useless
whatever la
had to control myself

My personal thought...
Why do things go the right way when i've given up?

NAT:I hope you're feeling better!
Move on. Stop thinking about it yeah?
You're doing great now! Smile :)
That person that we mentioned was acting rather hypocritical yesterday
I felt like throwing up.
She's such a hypocite.
Look at herself before she talks about others man..

2005-03-06T11:14:00.000-08:00

ohmygiddygod
I am just going to freaking die!
Can't wait for this evening.
I really love him for always being there for me
What more can i seriously ask for??
I'm just going to forget the netball screw up and go wild!!
I guess this is God's way of comforting me!
I LOVE YOU GOD!!
GRINS :D
tralala.
but i can only pull through today cause tomorrow i have to go to school and see some bits of junk.
Earlier on, when i was out with Liz
This lady kept looking at Liz
Liz: Why the hell is she looking at me?
Me:Look back! Look back!
so the both of us kept looking at her
...
...
Liz:Doesn't she remind you of a horse?
Me:I think she looks more like an antelope.
Liz: Man,she keeps looking.
Me:Then we should keep looking
Liz:I think she's gonna cry.
And indeed she started crying
We both got down on the next stop
Geez. that woman is so crappy.
Why the hell was she crying?
It was quite unexpected and really shocking.
She was crying so loudly.
Good grief.
We were so embarrassed.

2005-03-05T18:46:00.000-08:00

My life is seriously so fucked up
Forgive me for using such foul language, but yep..
Everyone,I'm suspended from the team.AGAIN
Nat also man..
Are they serionsly insane?!
NAT?!!
How can they bench her?
She's really trying now and the teachers don't give a damn!
They depend on others for a report?
They can't do it themselves is it?!
Only that will show us their genuine sincerity.
What an unreasonable bunch.
So individualistic.
And the finals are next week.Hooray man.
Everone's gonna wonder why Nat is not playing and i am going to tell the world
Shame those who deserve it.
I will ruin her!! Fuck man.
Reading Nat's blog nearly killed me.

Some people are just so confused with their pathetic little lives.
And others,tend to have to stoop so low just to get their way
They say something but they mean another.
How sad is that?
Sensationally sad.
That's how sad it is.
I can't help it if my brain doesn't like maths.
It's the only subject i have no,absolutely no, hope in.
I don't like to register maths formulas into my brain
and i have no wish to do so
with the oh-so-hard formulas and hurt my poor brain.
Yes, and i SERIOUSLY agree that only Nat and I are doing badly.
What kind of lame excuse is she trying to give me?
That i'm not doing well even if i'm not playing?
Like hello? Are you stupid or something?
Do i not attend the same trainings time as EVERYONE ELSE?
Do i not miss classes like everyone else?
It is such a dumb reason to give ,not just me, but everyone.
People who know about this think it's such a sad joke.
Please get it straight
My GRADES are not slipping.
It's just Maths
What is with the vague picture that she's giving me?
Tha WORST thing is that i was not even given a damn warning.
That is so very fair man.
Once again,
I apologise for my crude language
But i can't help it,
cause during the camp,
when we were sleeping or slacking,
my mind kept drifting off to this issue.
And i almost threw up my food due to someone's presence during the camp.
Seriously, fuck off please.
I really have nothing to lose at this point in time
You've taken away netball, what else do you want?

2005-03-05T03:41:00.000-08:00

I want to hurt myself and i am fucking serious
screw you.
fuck off please

2005-02-20T01:18:00.000-08:00

Oh.my.godd
My sister is such a loser.
She was putting on mascara just now and for some reason,
her lashes got clumped together (which was very funny)
So my think-she's-very-smart-sister decided to use a COMB to separate her lashes
she looked so absolutely retarted.
I almost died from laughter.

oh no..
I'm soo dead.
I haven't made my IC and the dateline is this Tuesday.
BUT i already have a plan.
sorry threeteners
heheh.

During training yesterday.
I was humiliated by the great Beitris. Thanks ah.

I know what she does
It makes me sick
She's disgusting
I'm going to tell

one thing people should note is that no matter what happens, i ALWAYS get the last laugh.

2005-02-17T18:29:00.000-08:00

Heyy!
boredd half to death in the computer lab with Stace next to me.
Mr Tang is soo blur can?
he asked us to come to the lab to complete a survey that hasn't even been enabled yet laa.
Damn loser man.

Anyway,during training yesterday.
It was quite okay.
The Junior's game was postponed for awhile due to the rain.
Nice game juniors!

The 2.4 km run almost killed me.
But thankfully even without motivation i was able to to meet my target.hooray
Thanks to some irresponsible person,the drills were quite screwed up today.
Irritant. you know who you are.you'll get it on Saturday.heehee.
All in all.Training was quite coolios.
ah well.

2005-02-09T19:48:00.000-08:00

good morning all.
okayy.
oh no..
I've got so much homework to do
and it's suppose to be chinese new year..
rarr.
I've to do 2 chinese compos and actually that's all.
Alot okayy..
unreasonable teachers
mr tang is gonna give us a bio quiz
and i left my bio. book in SCHOOL!!
oh no.

Dear God
I pray that when i open my eyes
laoshi will tell me that i dun have to do my compo cause my birthday just passed
and mr tang will say that the bio. test will be cancelled cause i'm fifteen
Amen

once again.
CALLI AND MEL ARE BOTH FIFTEEN AND TWO DAYS OLD!!YAYY!

2005-02-09T04:58:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Mel! Oh,and me!
Yayy.I'm finally fifteen!
Have to make IC.
So troublesome can?

Anyway.
Had a great time yesterday!
Hit town with Mel,Stacey and Marmie to celebrate Mel and my birthdayy
Went to Seoul Garden and SOMEBODY trip and fell
I shall not mention who. heehee
We took neoprints and i sort of screwed it up..
i didn't know....

Thanks everyone for the messages, greetings and gifts!
Really nice of you all.
Thanks Mr Tang for the cake!
To my classmates.
You ninny heads.
you know what you all did
cheat my feelings
not malu at all can?!
*whines

oh ya.Happy New Year!
I hate New Year. It's so God damn boring.
Watched Costantine with my sis.
Quite nice actually.
I thought it'll be more scary though
My sister and i splurged $200 on make-up!!
weehee.
waste moneyy..
oh well..
gonna hit the sack
laterr.

2005-01-22T21:50:00.000-08:00

lalala

2005-01-22T21:46:00.000-08:00

testing